Feeling Pathetic...........

Feeling Pathetic
( Found this one on d net )
( But completely relate to it )
Feeling pathetic today.
or maybe it's sorry for myself.
either way,
it's ugly.
did yoga.
the only highlight so far.
otherwise,
i've been pathetic.
Thinking too much crap,
which makes me feel like crap.
sleepy,
but not sleeping.
bored,
but unwilling to do anything different.
so i'm bored,
sleepy,
and feel like crap.
like i said,
pathetic.
tomorrow is a new day.
i hope.
--- NVS

Rily Dont Know Pals..

The weekend was more or less the same..Except that it gave a feed to this Blog..
I'v now become accustomed to the ventin out sessions of many a 'people'..This time it was Gaurav..
"I Don't Know How to Love her...." He Said.
I really do not know how to love her ever since the story of Mr. "A" came up.
I think she changed a lot after a couple of months.. She loves to nag,
always say that I'm not beautiful..
and my mentality sucks...
Sometimes I don't know why,
I just don't feel the love from her anymore,
not as strong as last time.
But sometimes,
she's showering me with so much of love....
Sometimes.. I feel like we are just a normal friends,
but sometimes I feel that we are lovers...
Sometimes her ignorance annoyed me,
but sometimes I felt so blessed.
Evil thoughts kept crossing my mind.....
Does she treat her friend the same way she treats me?
Does she nag at her friends?
I wonder....
whether her friends..
all have really been treated this way,
I wonder....
She has changed.....
totally......
Maybe she's just testing me..... my patience or..
maybe she just wants to crib...
She said ,, its a bad phase of her life..the worst probably..
but then why do i ahve to be the most considerate guy around..
I don't really think so,
like the way she threw tantrums at me..
when I was actually der for her..,
the way she still does that...
when I's busy tryin to get her out of the mess..
This is the N'th time I feel alone....
I didnt even know how a good life looks like...
Never mind,
because I'v got a strong inner self..
helping me... telling how it is good to ne tough....
I really can't live w/o them.... seriously...
She said I don't make friends around... then why on earth.. him,
making friend's.. friend all around the world.
I told him that she didnt even introduce her friends to me when we talked,
she'll just either cut away the phone or talk something else....
(covering up the matter).
She said I surely can't mix up with her friends,
then I was very furious that time( but still putting on a smiling face) 笑里藏刀
haha.....
I asked her..
is it because I'm not a Show- Man.. scholar.. or wat ever scholar and she's ashamed of bringing me out to meet with her friends.
Then she was like no......
she said she just has the feeling that
I can't mix well with her friends.
Okay fine!
I"m already fed up wtih it.....
Maybe we see each other too often this time,
but whenever she does that covering up pose,
my heart shattered.
why is she so secretive of the immoral deeds?
I have got millions and millions of whys to ask her,
but I don't know where to start.
It really hurts and it hurts so much.
Each time I can feel my heartstrings is pulling me
(something..... forgot the scientific name of it)
"It's very painful....
oh love is handsome,
may love be fine.
& love's a jewel while it's new.
But when love grows old,
it grows so cold,
& fades away like
morning dew....." HE SAID..
--- NVS

She's not a girl, Not yet a woman...

She's not a girl.... not yet a woman..
I used to think,

I had the answers to everything,

Mm... but now I know,
That life doesnt always go my way....

yeah...
Feels like I'm caught in the middle..

Thats when I realize..
She's not a girl,

Not yet a woman..
All She needs is time,

A moment that'l be mine..
While I'm in between,
She not a girl
There is a need to protect her,
But..

Its time..

that she learns to face up to this on her own..
I'v seen so much more ...than she knows now..

So..

dont tell me to shut my eyes..
She's not a girl,

Not yet a woman....

All She needs is time,

A moment that'l be mine...

While I'm in between,

She's not a girl
But if you look at her closely,
You will see it in her eyes..
This girl will always find her way...
Dont tell her what to believe..
She's not yet a woman
I'm just tryin to make her find the woman in her,

yeah..
All she needs is time...
Whoa,
All she needs is time...
A moment that'l be mine...
thats hers.. too..
While I'm in between,
She's not a girl,
Not yet a woman
Not now..
--- ( Convenient Adaptation.. NVS )
All the Credit sincerely goes to the song writer..