Don''t tell me.. why you are late...

Feeling very frustrated today.
Sometimes it seems like no matter how hard you try,

things just turn around and bite you in the backside.
I sincerely wish that consideration of others' time was a higher priority for people.
Yesterday,

I was waiting for someone at the local station.

The concerned person didn't arrive at the station at the time decided earlier on the phone before i left my place,

so that we could leave for the destination, immediately thereafter.
After about 5 minutes i called in,

the answer being that the person was leaving his place,

while i was already been waiting at the station like an "*******"!

I, myself too, get late at times.
I completely know that we live in a metro and you are bound to get late by 5-10 minutes.

but the person came around 20 minutes late,

reason being,

leaving home late and not the traffic neither work or anything of that sort.
Its so bloody frustrating to wait like an idiot at the station.

THIS IS NOT FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT THIS IS HAPPENING,

I have been very clear , direct, indirect and everything to make him understand that,

you have to value other's time.

what if i make you wait even for 5 minutes?
But the person seems unmoved by the constant appeal,

a 'sorry' and a 'new excuse' each and every time on his part seems okay as a justification.

I'm not here to say that he's lying or anything but this is frustrating,

for sure,

for me as a person!

will these people ever change...??
The place,this metro rather has changed,

indicating that the people who make it 'on/before time' are mere idiots and should change on,

to coming late,

as to give people time to have time of their own.
That's right,

then PERHAPS,

ITS HIGH TIME I should change,

i guess,for good,atleast with these people.
And its just that the topic needs to go on that long and that there is not a lot being said.

It is a genre of people who clearly just like arriving late and 'ASSUMING THAT' they're some kinda 'Celebrities'..

infact they themselves celebrate their 'coming late' with all the sugar coated rich in creme` excuses!
for me it is nothing but...

a lack of respect on their part for others as well as themselves.
that makes me conclude,

as we have to weigh out a cost-benefit analysis regarding whether..

the time lost is worth the time we're going to spend later with them,

but this requires an accurate accounting for how much worth these people are..??

I know.. this sounds rude!
If I had known they would continue doing it for so long,

I wouldn't have waited,or may be i would still have,

these people seem to think no end of themselves,

with coming as late as about 1& 1/2 to 2 hours late!

and talking about 20- 25 minutes.. haa--ah..

Its nothing for them!
I have been hopeful, saying that..

in the future,
in the future,
in the future,
At least sometime,

these people will make it in time.
I remember this,

and try to grant more consideration to others than I was given.
I get into an argument with my friends,

and let's say that I ain't so calm and I do have an inside voice.
I feel bad for making it rude,

but I've been so frustrated and angry at them that it was just the tip of the iceberg.
Better now than later.

I think I just got sick and tired of their ways.

they just don't understand sometimes,

and just don't listen to what I have to say.
Everyone told me that it's going to be alright,

but in actuality,

I feel like it's never going to be alright.
Lately,

I feel like I can't talk to anyone,

hence,

writing has been my best friend since times immemorial.
It's a lonesome feeling of being caught between desires and obligations.
I don't think anyone can empathize,

even my closest friends.
I,so desperately, want 'this very something'( people getting late) in my life to change,

whether it's work, family, friends, or love life.
I just need something to change before I turn even more unhappy than the state I am in now.
I realized that I just keep giving.

And giving.
And giving.
To the point,

I don't have anything to give anymore.

Meaning.. I am really running out of patience.

I can't be naive..

I can't be agressive..
I'm so numb and so...distant...that I just don't know what to do anymore.
Everything I say isn't good enough.
Everything I give isn't good enough.
I am just failing at this whole life gig.
I. am. just. so. frustrated.

I end this with an inherent (final) appeal..
Will ya please be on time....??
Cuz i ain't waiting the next time you are late again.
And i'm going to leave for sure!

Sorry for being so rude..

( i know.. that is so 'not me')

But u leave me no choice!
---NVS